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wow. i just looked at my blog and realized that i have not posted in quite some time. and that the last few posts during my unemployment phase were rather inconsequential. figures. lately, though, i've been writing thoughts that are a little too heavy to share blindly with the world. how great would that be to totally be able to expose yourself and not worry about the consequences. what would the consequences be? vulnerability. hello, here are my weaknesses. and my fears. and my faults. here i am, like an open wound. pour some salt on me, if you would please. twist that knife that's already too deeply embedded within my heart. know i am not as strong as i pretend to be, not as witty, not as smart, not as cool. know that i am just human, like you, not even as good as you. know that i get sad when it gets dark. that miss kitty is my only confidant at times. and even then still, i don't open up too much.
what to do, what to do. so i've gotten a job for a few months. then i plan to travel to thailand for a bit. jitka emailed me back today, so i think my stay may be longer than the two weeks i had expected, which is great by me. and then...? and then...?
and then along came jones. tall, thin jones. slow-walkin' jones. low-talkin' jones. along came long, lean, lanky jones.
and then...i'll have to figure out what to do with the rest of my life in May. May 2004. i'll be 32. shiiit. 32. hmm? dallas anyone? california? new york city? when does one decide what to do with 'the rest of their lives' or does it just happen and is decided for you. who's making the decisions around here anyway?! i'm pretty sure it's not me, cuz if i were in charge, i'd be doing things a lot differently, that's for sure.
by the way, i think evite is genius.
posted by
zenbetty at 5:39 PM
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